Dilman Dila

Oh Julio, I've watched Shakespear in Love and I hope you don't believe writers need love because of that movie. Remember there are heartaches associated with that emotion. I failed to write the whole of last weekend because some girl got pregnant. I didn't balloon her. She was just a lady I knew, used to work with. Okay, she was cute. About 19 and just joining university. The way she used to look at me, I felt I could have actually told her "i love you' and succeeded in winning her heart. Only that I didnt tell her such words because I thought she was too young for me. About ten years. We however grew close, she was like a younger sister. And I used to believe she was a virgin. She fell sick sometime ago, and I asked her what the matter was. She said malaria. The doctors didn't find malaria. So I told her maybe it's still hysteria. She said, "no. I'm still too young to have a boyfriend." Now, last Friday, her mum calls me and tells me "El is pregnant" I felt like Bagdad after a George Bush visit. Then she tells me who is responsible, and now i felt like Hiroshima after WWII. We weren't in love, but her situation hurt me so much that you would immagine she was my girlfriend. The guy, a scum, who told her a pack of lies and she believe he was an angel, hurt me even more. she never told me about this relationship otherwise I'd have warned her against it. He chases ho's and bleached women and I fear he may have infected her with Aids. Back to the point, love can put you in such a situation. If you are a writer, it might kill your muse completely.